yesterday was kind of obvious huh. i guess everyone has to take a break from act-happy land and go back to reality a while and be sad. so yesterday that was my excuse. maybe it's time to stop giving a fuck. but people can try me, and see how long i can actually hold out, even i myself am curious too.

i enjoy sitting alone at the sports complex in my school actually. i like sitting on the tiers of spectator seats and staring out to the big field and track. the big open space actually gives me a sense of calmness and melancholy, just like how i would sit on the breakwaters and look out to the sea. solitude makes me think and reflect. i let my mind freely wonder about things and all the things i have done, could have done, and didn't do. at the same time, i would listen to music on full blast, songs like Cave, Stockholm Syndrome, Micro Cuts and Hysteria.

the reason why i like to listen to Muse is that although they're a metal band, and metal music automatically being associated to anger and hardcore, however their music has this certain wailing broken feeling to it. it's just not about playing their thing in music and vent vent vent it all out. their lyrics are pretty subtle, and songs like Cave has a little tingle of seduction and loneliness about it which captures my attention. i still like the lead singer's unique wailing singing (: it's different and cool and they really own at the electric guitar lol. whenever i listen to their music, you get this feeling of being sucked into the whole song and you're like floating and swaying in between the powerful riffs of the guitar. then you feel like you're half drugged or maybe drunk as you start thinking of certain things and tell your own story.

oh, and thanks to my classmates yesterday who pulled the ropes and supported me as i crossed the broken bridge on the adventure tower. their cheers really geared me on cause i wasn't a big fan of heights and thrills to be honest in the first place. kinda felt like giving up when the whole wooden plank just wasn't stable enough to support me crossing and when my strings were entangled and i had to spend a long time untangling it and keeping my balance. my arms were really sore to all the clinging and pulling after what seemed like a really long time. but i still managed to complete the whole thing and dead tired i was when i went home. but anyhow, sorry for all the rope burn, skin peeling and blisters i caused to you all, especially the guys who pulled and sat really hard lol. (: me loves y'all!

Hysteria's on now, and i'm feeling drugged. goodness me.

{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT
& somedays on mute mode

A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D

Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good. With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings. Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality. Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life. Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.

Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.

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